such is life , times like these

it's funny, no not haha, but more like queer, but i am in that, current mood of - sorts. yesterday three different people at three different times none of whom i knew asked me if i was okay. i replied no there nothing wrong i just been thinking. i have been playing my guitar at night before i go to bed like i am playing myself to sleep, you know i do not drink, well, now you know but i totally understand why people could drink every night of there lives, and never really think about how that helps them settle and get beaten back by living. you might be wondering if i don;t drink how do i know this about alcohol,

well back in 2000 i was a drunk for two nights. three beers the first night and two with a swig of what my neighbor gave me, the second and boy was i drunk. i believe this is what is called a light weight, being that i never have been a drinker the second night my neighbor came out side he was a russian so i think it was vodka of some type. all i'll saw about that period is "women" or should it be "woman" but more importantly i remember coming home from work the third night of this episode and thinking to myself okay you have drunk all of your brother beers and now there is only unopened hard alcohol left in the house, so now what? well i did not want to become a drunk, i could picture myself twenty years down the road stopping off after work to get something to drink before coming home, so i gave it up right there.

okay so some how that's all related to how i am at this moment, but not the drinking part. the color the best describes me is a deep indigo like at twilight with some burnt orange around the edges, not musical note would have to be Dflat minor. well am about to play my guitar before i go to bed. goodnight