such is life , times like these

it's funny, no not haha, but more like queer, but i am in that, current mood of - sorts. yesterday three different people at three different times none of whom i knew asked me if i was okay. i replied no there nothing wrong i just been thinking. i have been playing my guitar at night before i go to bed like i am playing myself to sleep, you know i do not drink, well, now you know but i totally understand why people could drink every night of there lives, and never really think about how that helps them settle and get beaten back by living. you might be wondering if i don;t drink how do i know this about alcohol,

well back in 2000 i was a drunk for two nights. three beers the first night and two with a swig of what my neighbor gave me, the second and boy was i drunk. i believe this is what is called a light weight, being that i never have been a drinker the second night my neighbor came out side he was a russian so i think it was vodka of some type. all i'll saw about that period is "women" or should it be "woman" but more importantly i remember coming home from work the third night of this episode and thinking to myself okay you have drunk all of your brother beers and now there is only unopened hard alcohol left in the house, so now what? well i did not want to become a drunk, i could picture myself twenty years down the road stopping off after work to get something to drink before coming home, so i gave it up right there.

okay so some how that's all related to how i am at this moment, but not the drinking part. the color the best describes me is a deep indigo like at twilight with some burnt orange around the edges, not musical note would have to be Dflat minor. well am about to play my guitar before i go to bed. goodnight

LA + midnight = wtf

traffic, did I mention wtf

-- Sent from my Treo jupiter lovejoy com

Pooling

my naked newphew, beating the summer heat @ gma's house
-- Sent from my Treo jupiter lovejoy com

the coming night season

i did not take any of these pictures i just very like the sky in them, there is something about twlight that i just really love. not here and neither is it there .

jupiter♠ and venus♥
big dipper
comet

comet fire at midnight

cooking with jupe

the first dish is my jupamolie
avocados*salt*lime*garlic
add what makes it your own two thins you might try is toms and cilantro
1 avocados- cut in half remove seed then run the knife horizontality the vertical making small square\'s in the avo this makes stirring and getting the texture easier
2 salt the avo until there is a change in taste -I can taste this easily, so be careful not to over salt the avo\'s- and be careful not to over stir or the finished guacamole will be a fine butter
3 next and lime until you can just taste it wham on to the next step
4 is the garlic as far as I can tell there can never be too much but not ever tastes this way!

jack-you-chicken
(jacks you on the way in jacks you on the way out)
i have not found the perfect side dish to serve this with so, it\'s been with bread, rice, and pasta so far chicken*hot sauce(s)*lime*butter*cinnamon*
1 i like to use skinless boneless tights or breasts i cut the chicken into bite size pieces be careful not to over cook the chicken
2 have a pan with a bit of butter in it melting in it place the chicken bite in there along with lime juice and hot sauce the more sources of heat the better as in tabsco, chili powder, this korean stuff what ever you can get your hands on the more the better (of course you do not have to add hot stuff but then it\'s not magic)
3 add a hint of cinnamon JUST A HINT As in dust the surface
4 find something to serve with it

remember who you wanted to be? -FEARLESS CHILDLIKE

so this guy comes up to me and says outof the blue

remember who you wanted to be?

aaaawwww,what!?!

you talking to me, i ask him.

yeah he responses, you remember who you wanted to be?

what i did not realize is that is not a question that you can't get away from, it's like challenging your whole childhood ideas about how life works, and the world with you as an individual in it, and how you were going to change it the world if you can, so how do you defend who and what you grew into being so far removed from who you wanted to be. be real it's easier to settle along the way we get so used to it that we do not even noticed, and when we were told to

dream big we never noticed that's a way to incite ambition in children before we rob it from them! remember being between 5 to 8 years of age and making friends with other kids in and around the play ground just because both of you were kids and noting else matter colour of skin money where you lived only that you both were in the moment, go to the park and watch kids introduce themselves to each other you will see if you do not remember. watch them they do not care.

so i was like man that's not a realistic question for you to be asking me about

i do not know you from caption jack. i rebuttal

as he just stares in to my eyes,

and soon i start think well there's ah this... and aahh there's that thingy you know.

with him looking cool straight in my eye, souls locked in some sort of wwf death match on with this question and any purpose for my life’s justification of how my adult years have turned out. the years pass the age of innocence and all he does is agrees,

yeah, ooohhh eons of weight and remorse being not removed but acknowledged,

leaving tears swelling up in my eyes. one fragmented agreement from some guy i do not even know.

and my child is asking to me "hello my name is jupiter lovejoy what's yours.

in the back of my mind kicks in words from JESUS in that he forewarns of those who harm the children.

setting them astray from the path of God, and what about those of us who have set the child we once were off on the lower path of self letting go of so much everyday justifying and setting of who we are becoming, with the days passes very much the same way with the breaking of night and the chill of the air. the sun hugs and kisses from the horizon setting colour aglow. then tending to the affairs of the day the sun puts the colours away. climbing high into the sky then settles in to the path it has chosen falls crashing in to the horizon like some song in d# minor bleeding back the hues of orange, red, pinks, and purples into the sky.

and there at that one point between the night season and the day where the sun gives back what is was giving right before the very last of light follows, this part of the day is only called twilight! and this is where i was left standing FEARLESS CHILDLIKE with tears cascading down my cheeks

all because i was driving in traffic next to some guy with a bumper sticker the raised the question "remember who you wanted to be".